Buildings aren’t really my specialty, but i decided to accept this commission because first, I wanted to try some stuff out of my comfort zone. Just last 2 weeks, i guess? I felt really depressed about how stagnant i was and with the help of my great, great internet friends, i was able to feel better. Though i knew it would be really hard when the commissioner told me the details of her request, plus the added pressure of the fact that this is going to be their magazine cover, i thought there’d be no better opportunity to push myself to do better, so yeah, i took it. I think i’m starting to move forward again and it’s good.
2nd, well, i need the money and they’re going to pay well. There’s these shoes i wanted to buy and i’m planning to try painting with oil and gouache this sem break and i’d need money to buy new materials.
Lastly, i have nothing better to do anyways. I do have a few schoolwork to think about but i’m not doing it until the last minute anyways. And i’m way too distracted about the turmoils of my interpersonal relationships and thinking of schoolwork isn’t helping. I’ve been depressed for quite a while, even a little up until now. After my exboyfriend left me and our mutual friends excluded me, i’ve been a wreck. Thankfully, i found out who my real friends are, and then commissions and opportunities to grow are coming and i get the proper distraction i need.
Apologies for the drama again ; A; if you’ve read this far, thank you so much. I’ll do my best to not mess this up (i’ll do something about those windows *A*). Wish me luck! *u*
I really tried making this tutorial (I aM SO HORRIBLE AT MAKING TUTORIAL SO PLEASE DON’T ASK ME TO MAKE ONE FOR YOU LMAO….*turns head*)
I’ve been getting a lot of messages on how to paint w/gouache…so here’s a step by step process on how I paint gouache. You can find what kind of brands I use on my about me page (you just need to scroll down and you’ll find it)
Also for the palette I use. I highly recommend this palette! Why? Because you can save your gouache (or acrylics)…and the special palette paper absorbs the water from the sponge (and it lasts pretty long…like about five weeks?)
If you have any questions, please message me lol……
I am so trying this out onour semester break.
3 more weeeks ; A;
I’ve come a long way.
Well, I guess I’ve been improving after all :))
I need a scanner T^T
For quite some time now, I can’t help but feel stagnant as an artist. Like I’ve lost all motivation and inspiration, and I don’t know which to blame. I still feel the need to draw though, since I don’t know what else I should and can be if not an artist. I am also aware that I still have a lot of potential; there’s so much room to grow.
But it’s like I’ve stopped growing.
I don’t know. Maybe it’s just that I’m scared of my own incompetence?
Most people around me are very supportive and they all believe in my talent. I appreciate all those, don’t get me wrong. I still get happy whenever people compliment my works. But it’s like, I feel impatient. Like, I feel that can do better, and yet when I hold a pencil and stare at the blankness of the paper, I freeze.
I don’t have ideas.
Whenever I try and search for inspiration, I only end up being frustrated instead of being inspired. I think about those people who are so creative, and I’m still here stuck at doing the same things over again. The same safe things. I want to get out of my comfort zone, but I feel boxed, i feel imprisoned. I feel like I can’t. I’m starting to get scared that I might not be as good as I thought I can be.
I feel like Colin Singleton. (If anyone reading this have read An Abundance of Katherines by John Green, you’ll get where I’m coming from) I don’t know if this is still an Artist’s Block; maybe something even worse, but I just want to stop feeling this way.
DAY 5: YOUR FAVORITE FAIRY TALE: SHREK
orz this is a super late upload. //slapped//
sorry i have a lot going on T^T
Anyways, Shrek is technically a fairy tale right? I was actually torn between this one and Wicked,since I loved both of them equally, but I’ve done fanarts on Wicked before so I decided to give Shrek some love this time.
This was originally done in watercolors but like what i always do with my photos, I added filters to make it look um, cleaner i guess? I don’t know.
And I just love that papercut effect.
Late upload. ^.^
Since the new semester started, me and two of my siblings moved to our grandma’s house which is nearer to the school to save transpo fare, but since there’s no internet connection there, i haven’t been able to go online (and the connection home isn’t any better so -.-)
Anyways, i enjoyed doing this one. I don’t always paint out my feelings (because idk how, i struggle at getting my shit together), but idk, it came randomly. After a clean break-up (too clean to let go) , i just had to transfer my feelings somewhere so.